It is amazing how the closer you get to God the more satan attacks and makes you question yourself. Maybe it is your job, your spouse, your parenting, your life, your friends, or yourself as a whole that you question. Regardless satan will do something to raise your insecurity and doubt. I have had this happen time and time again. Sadly enough I have friends who have encountered the same obstacles as they try to get closer to God. What is even sadder is how many people will stop trying to get closer to God because of the self doubt and trickery that satan plays. During those times we have to remember that God's love for us is stronger than we could ever imagine.
While going through the Bible Study of Confident Heart I realize that while I need to work through this for myself I also need to work through it for my daughter. It is strange that I am like it is okay for me to have self-doubt and insecurity but I do not want my daughter to have those same feelings. Hmm, guess what just like I do not want my child to have those feelings, God doesn't want me to have those feelings. When I was thinking of my love for my child, and not wanting her to ever doubt who she is or why God made her, God asked me why I question those things then - not about her but about myself. I need to work on myself so that I can be that example for my daughter. God's love for me is priceless and I am priceless to Him. Look at the price that he paid for me! (and you)! When you read about His love for us and how He wants us to be in peace you realize just how priceless we are. Maybe we aren't what society thinks is perfect, maybe we wish we were better at things, or maybe we just want to be accepted by others. Isn't it more important to accept God and make our life what He wants it to be?
I often find myself comparing myself to others and what they may want me to be. I have decided that those opinions do not matter any longer. What matters is that my focus is on God and the life He has planned for me. I still have low moments but thanks to my no fail pail that will be changing as well. I want to be more secure in God than in mankind. If you put your hope in mankind you will be let down time and time again, but God is never changing. God's love for me is priceless and I am priceless in His eyes. That should be all that matters!
Chrissy, your example to your daughter is #priceless. I have three grown daughters and seven precious grandchildren, and they all know that when I fail (reach for my pail) that our Heavenly Father never fails!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. I just realized that on the blog regarding my daughter (and infertility and the parenting aspect after infertility) that I am firm in my views of how I should parent and do not question that when it comes to my daughter. However, I am still so unsure of myself in that aspect and other aspects. My daughter is my gift from God and I wouldn't have her to be an example to if it was not for His love and grace to me. Funny how that aspect is so easy to realize but yet I do not always see my worth to Him.
ReplyDeleteChrissy you are not alone in those feelings of insecurity. I've dealt with them all my life. It's only been in the last few years that I've seen my insecurities as an affront to the God who made me and sent His beautiful and perfect Son to die for me. How can we call ugly what God has made #priceless by the blood of Jesus. We are learning though, aren't we.
ReplyDeleteLove you my sister and praying you continue madding progress.
Blessing,
Barbara Prince, OBS Small Group Leader/Prayer Warrior Team