Life verse

Have you ever picked a verse, memorized it, and focused on it for a difficult time in life?  I had not done this prior to dealing with infertility.  During the infertility journey, I can't even remember how, but I came across Proverbs 3:5 "Trust the Lord with all your heart, do not lean on your own understanding".  Wow what a verse to step on my toes.

Did you notice that it doesn't say trust your coworker, your boss, your spouse, your doctor, your neighbor, or even your parents?  It says trust the LORD!  How often do we put our trust in man?  And how often does man let us down?  Now think about when the Lord let you down... still thinking aren't you.

Moving on from that it says with ALL your heart.  Not part of it, not a 1/4 of it but ALL of it.  This becomes hard if our trust isn't in the Lord.  If we trust man then we think man will pull us out of the situation, so the Lord only gets part of our trust.  In the end we are let down, broken, and hurt by man and turn back to the Lord.  Why did we ever turn to man over the Lord?  We put our trust in someone else then find ourselves back in the same position.

Why do you think it says not to lean on own understanding?  I think it is because our mind will lead us down a path we don't need to go down.  For example, during infertility my mind went to I did something wrong, I don't deserve a child, and all of these reasons that I wasn't getting pregnant.  Maybe it just wasn't the right timing?  Instead of waiting on God's timing I was trying to make it my own.  Look where my understanding got me.  Upset, wondering what I did wrong, wondering why I was being punished, and looking around at pregnant women wondering why they could have a child and I couldn't.  This past weekend would have been my cousin's birthday, but we lost her to cancer when she was 20 years old.  We do not know why, but I know that God had a plan for her and her life.  There are a lot of things in life that we will not understand, but God has a reason for it.

I believe that God lead me to this verse so that I would realize that He had it ALL under control.  Since that experience this has become my life verse.  I have it written, posted, embroidered, and most of all repeat it to myself very often.  It seems to be valuable for all aspects of life.  I am often praying this verse, even today because I do not want to put the world before God.

What is your life verse?  Why does this verse fit you, and what lead you to this verse?  If you do not have a life verse I encourage you to get one.