So the person talked about my grandfather being such a gentle man, that no one had anything bad to say about him. I have heard that many times, and even said oh to leave a legacy like he did. This person went on to say that if someone upset my grandfather he would say "if they can live with it then I can too". Wow, what a way to say I completely forgive and move on. I try to move on when someone upset me or does me wrong but often find that I am catching myself still being angry. I need to learn how to feel that way to just be okay and realize that they are the one that has to answer for their actions. I am trying to doing better with this, but you know habits are hard to break. Imagine if all of us took that mindset, and how different our world would be. Granted this is something that even I am still working on, but aren't we all a work in progress?
The other night I had to drive his truck, which I was not prepared for. I get in the truck and think okay turn the radio on and have a distraction. guess what the radio didn't work. I said okay Pa it is just me and you for a few minutes. The tears started and all I could say was I miss you. There have been times that I stop in my tracks because something for the brief moment catches my attention and reminds me of him.
They say that grief comes in waves and I have to admit it is true. The wave may be a gentle reminder or memory or one of the tsunami waves that catches you off guard and knocks you off of your feet. It comes in waves but you never know the size of the wave.
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