Today I was taken back in time to October 2014.
I had received a text from my best friend that her mom wasn't doing well. I told her I would be there after church. After church Emma, my mom, and myself stopped by the hospital. We visited for a few minutes then I need to get Em to lunch, so we left to meet Steve. While eating I asked Steve to take care of other stuff because I felt the need to get back to the hospital.
I went back to the hospital was able to get some laughs in with my friend and her family. I hope I was able to distract my friend's mind for a few minutes during that time Then I was taken back in time. Back to a different hospital, a different surrounding of family, but oh so similar in so many ways. Realizing that you have to say goodbye, realizing life was forever changing, and realizing you would never be the same person again. I watched as my friend went to say her last goodbye and my heart broke. I know that feeling, I know that moment of what do I do, and I know the feelings that follow. Here was a major difference it was her mom. As a female we all know how we are over our moms, and here she was having to say goodbye.
She lost her mother, and her life has now forever changed. There were many tears shed today, and there will be more shed in the future. The future for my friend has changed forever, and for that my heart breaks. I can lend an ear, a shoulder to cry on, and shed my own tears for her, but I can never change what happened today.
Her dad broke my heart when he said "those were the hardest words I have ever had to day". Can you imagine saying goodbye to your spouse, mother of your two daughters, and being completely lost without her? Life proves that we will all have to say goodbyes that are hard, but we also know that because of God's love we can see our loved ones again.
Maybe it isn't goodbye, but a see you later?
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Wednesday, October 21, 2015
I saw the sign, and it opened up my eyes...
Yes, that was a song by Ace of Base several years ago.
As we go through life we often have signs to guide us. Everyday we see stop signs, directional signs, and road signs. We become immune to them because we see them so often. However, do you ever stop in your tracks because of a sign? Granted you should stop at a stop sign, but I am talking about signs to direct your life. Maybe it relates to your job, your family, and the most important ones typically relate to your faith.
I love when a sign pops up and grabs my attention. You may be thinking that it has never happened to you, but I bet it has even if it hasn't caught your attention. Have you ever been driving down the road and looked at the sunset? Have you ever looked up at night to see the stars? I enjoy looking at the wonderful works that God does. Emma will get out of the truck when we get home at night, look up to the sky, and all she says is "Wow". The wonder in her eyes tells me that seeing the stars is a sign for her. A sign of God, something bigger than herself, and something that takes your breath away. I have the same experience standing at the ocean. God directs the waves, controls how far the waves go, and has sand dunes as barriers.
Other times I sense signs from others. My amazing, beautiful, inspirational friend Gail who we lost to cancer loved flamingos. When I started my new job last week, I was looking through the desk which had been cleaned out and stopped in my tracks. There in the drawer was a postcard with different colored flamingo on it. A couple of days later, I was asked to work on a project for work and when I pulled out the example to go by the following quote was on it "We are, each of us, angels with only one wing; and we can only fly by embracing one another" Luciano de Crescenzo. Another sign - this same quote was put on a picture of me and Gail when she passed away. I knew coming into this job, that my heart was in it and now I see it as signs of I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
The signs that I love to see the most are the signs that my faith is growing. I find myself in conversation being able to quote scripture, or being able to relate a situation to scripture. In the past two years this is something that I have noticed, and each time I thank God that He gave me the words for that situation. I cannot sit here and tell you everything in the Bible, but that is something I am working on.
I encourage you to take the time to look for signs, look for God's wonderful works around you, and then thank Him for those. There is always a silver lining, sometimes you just have to look for it. You may wonder how the Ace of Base song ties in but the last part of the song is:
I challenge you to look for those signs today, and let God open your eyes.
As we go through life we often have signs to guide us. Everyday we see stop signs, directional signs, and road signs. We become immune to them because we see them so often. However, do you ever stop in your tracks because of a sign? Granted you should stop at a stop sign, but I am talking about signs to direct your life. Maybe it relates to your job, your family, and the most important ones typically relate to your faith.
I love when a sign pops up and grabs my attention. You may be thinking that it has never happened to you, but I bet it has even if it hasn't caught your attention. Have you ever been driving down the road and looked at the sunset? Have you ever looked up at night to see the stars? I enjoy looking at the wonderful works that God does. Emma will get out of the truck when we get home at night, look up to the sky, and all she says is "Wow". The wonder in her eyes tells me that seeing the stars is a sign for her. A sign of God, something bigger than herself, and something that takes your breath away. I have the same experience standing at the ocean. God directs the waves, controls how far the waves go, and has sand dunes as barriers.
Other times I sense signs from others. My amazing, beautiful, inspirational friend Gail who we lost to cancer loved flamingos. When I started my new job last week, I was looking through the desk which had been cleaned out and stopped in my tracks. There in the drawer was a postcard with different colored flamingo on it. A couple of days later, I was asked to work on a project for work and when I pulled out the example to go by the following quote was on it "We are, each of us, angels with only one wing; and we can only fly by embracing one another" Luciano de Crescenzo. Another sign - this same quote was put on a picture of me and Gail when she passed away. I knew coming into this job, that my heart was in it and now I see it as signs of I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
The signs that I love to see the most are the signs that my faith is growing. I find myself in conversation being able to quote scripture, or being able to relate a situation to scripture. In the past two years this is something that I have noticed, and each time I thank God that He gave me the words for that situation. I cannot sit here and tell you everything in the Bible, but that is something I am working on.
I encourage you to take the time to look for signs, look for God's wonderful works around you, and then thank Him for those. There is always a silver lining, sometimes you just have to look for it. You may wonder how the Ace of Base song ties in but the last part of the song is:
I saw the sign
And it opened up my eyes, I saw the sign
I challenge you to look for those signs today, and let God open your eyes.
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